is age the matter?

not wanting to try anything new

not wanting to go to the movies

not wanting to understand what the world's evolving into

I hope I'm not like this if I get to get old.

tool

I think

by writing words

possibly by drawing pictures too

without the pen

my thoughts would be incomplete

I'd go through life blurry and fragmented.

Thus as long as the pen exist

as long as my mind churns thoughts

I'd keep writing.

1.1.11 wasn't the new year

so at the start of the year

lots of things happened

people died, people left

new realisations

old realisations

new engagements

then now...

everything came to a halt

as if my mind has converged

all thoughts into a single point

and realise it needs a makeover

before it gets too dull and dies

I'll draft another resolution

cuz the new year

has just came of late.

miss you

distance made me see

the core structures in my life

like being able to text you anytime

being able to call you anytime

is not there anymore

now that an ocean came between us

think my heart just ached.

present

everything we ever wanted

is right here

just have to stop walking

and feel

goodbye

so you died
I'm not sure how to feel
I know death is here
but it feels surreal
because once upon a time
we laughed together

clipped

been awhile since I've kissed those lips
been awhile since our destinies' crossed
sometimes I see you here
other times, no where
and today I saw you again
san the wings of courage
san the wings of freedom
badly, silently, I sat here and hope
someday you'd find them again.

Exit Left

she said, when I was really young
I'd stare out of the window, stare into space,

into nothingness

you told me that
you said she called me a dreamer and that's how I'd be.

what was I dreaming of? I didn't know then.
time went by. she passed on. again you reminded me.
now I realised

it was the real me that I was dreaming of:
the one who beckons to break into the physical dimension

the one who rebels against merely being a wisp of the imagination.

aye. and I shall grant myself courage,

to always let me out.